Failed attempts towards contradiction

In an attempt to become what I found it neccesary to be, I found myself becoming everything which I have been fighting against and found my definition of my gender to be contradicting within itself. Being "one of the guys" has now come to mean that I am becoming one of "them" and that I have attempted and am currently attempting to fit into the socially created binary. With all of this, we all know that as society expects us to fit into the binaries , we expect ourselves to find a place in this world where we fit in and have a community. Since most of the society is, in fact, part of the cisgender community, we see that we attempt to fit into the binaries to fit into that community. So until we can see and become part of the community of our queer brothers, sisters, and all inbetween, we will never truly become what we TRULY mean to be.